January 06, 2005
I've struggled this year with my job. Molly draws so much energy and time from me that I've basically been at "survival-level" teaching all year, meaning that I'm not working at the motivated and creative level I usually do.
To make matters worse, I'm teaching a full load of AP English classes as well as a new prep, English III, American Literature. That's old news for anyone who knows me and has heard me whine. What is new is a realization after several months of stress.
Normally, teachers vie for AP classes because they generally are full of motivated, college-bound teenagers eager to learn. But you know what? I don't want to teach these classes. I want my plain ol' sophomores back. My ego doesn't need to teach AP. Teaching sophomore regular English, I get paid the same with less than half the workload of essays and preparation. To a lot of other teachers, it sounds crazy to not want the AP kids. But the stress associated with huge classes and a broken system of prerequisites and expectations has led me, once again, to reflect on why I'm doing this job. I simply do not have the innate motivation and enthusiasm required of AP classes. Take them away.Posted by tat at January 6, 2005 10:48 AM